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You'd think that having more than a decade of education under your belt you'd be able to pride yourself with an impeccable mastery of the English language. Lately, it seems like I've forgotten how to use my words :(
Even blogging has been difficult for me because I can't seem to rack up the words to express what my mind is telling me. It's like this: external force/situation/event -> recognised by brain -> brain sends signals to body and a reaction occurs -> mouth opens to speak...then...silence.
So I haven't been my chirpy twitter self lately (except on Wednesday at simmy's house when my brain overproduced batches of endorphins because I was hungry and dehydrated). I have been talking, but I would like for when I open my mouth something intelligent would come out. Not just an: "oh...ok". Either that or I utter out something totally inappropriate or irrelevant. Classic case of verbal vomit. I think it's because of the secrecy I've sworn to myself about keeping my personal details and thoughts disclosed to people that it has made it hard for me to communicate properly to another walking being. Even Mocchi could satisfy me these days with his level of conversation.
Paranoia and the issues of trust I've been battling have caused me to draw a line between what's acceptable and what's too close for comfort. And I refuse to speak openly to anyone who comes within that marked line. I find myself stepping away when they move in too close. Even with my closest friends - If I could smell his cologne, he was standing too close. Sigh, I really need to battle these monsters before they turn me into a crazy woman.
I'm in the mood for reading. The other day I wandered into Dymocks to look for something light-hearted to relieve my mind of daily frustrations before I sleep. I looked for Paper Planes by John Green, I heard it is a fantastic young-adult fiction. But being newly released in the US, they actually didn't have any in stock, nor were they ordering it. Ah well. I need something to read. Got any suggestions? Labels: using words
1 comments:
Light reading? I have Confessions of a shopoholic and the twilight series which i can send to you over msn :]
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